the art of wa-yang

hmmm.. the army is really a darn inefficient place ehh?

it's like... it's so farcical and pretense, as though people in the higher echelons with great ideals and fantastich plans are completely disconnected with the REAL unit world and hence dish out all sort of crap like..

GSI? LRI? Safety Meetings? Compulsory USMS and WITS?

I mean, i can envision what happens in the boardrooms UP there..

"Scholar 1: Hmm.. the army needs more suggestions from the lower-level lesser beings in order to improve.. but so far response to our suggestion box (just like that fateful one in Delta Wing which Zhirong broke) is at best lukewarm.. so..

Scholar 2: I know! let's make it compulsory for everyone to make at least 2 suggestions, and to add incentives, lets award good suggestions with monetary awards.."

-_-..

so THIS is what you call lateral thinking??!

you just created a shit-load of more work for the poor S4s and their corresponding Dy S4s who have to approve all these for the money and then race to meet quotas... when like the result is most of the suggestions are CRAP...

and crappy suggestions get awarded money... ~*roll eyes..

and with all these auditing and so on and compulsory "fire drill reports" and "safety meeting reports"... just paves way for hapless staff officers cracking their brains for phoney meeting topics and agendas... duh..

i meet, cos no one else gives a rat-ass about them? and have much more stuff better to do?

you know, itz not that i'm complaining about workload, it just that it sucks to know that majority of what you do plainly is USELESS and contributes zilch to the organization... like most of the stuff you handle with is either outdated, irrelevant or fake...

-_-

oh WELL.. wadeva lah huh?

i'll try to have integrity and actually DO all the fire drills and safety meetings.. juz wonder when i'd be clobbered to death by my fellow pcs for wasting their time if i do that...

reGards,
FraNk

photos-entry

... how long will it be before the glory fades and mundaneness sets in?

... how long will it be before habits, pastimes and jokes with others become but a mist in one's memory?

... how long can we hold on to these fragile relationships nurtured through the harsh conditions of OCS?

oh well...

frANk

god's little interventions..

still trying to search for reasons why i got posted to 3 sig bn as dy s4... i mean, maybe itz just that it's hard for me to swallow the fact that i got posted there cos "I ain't too combatant and not suited for such a job, that i'm not better than the rest"... cos towards the end of my stay in OCS, i came to realize that it ain't a bad thing to be "garang" or to just be darn good outfield or what...

oh well, too bad it came too late, now i don't really have a choice already do i?

but what i DO realise is that this might be a way that God is trying to remind me to return back to Him... to really "STOP WASTING MY LIFE" as my sister's book says.. and really, there are many timed interventions that have been occuring..

1. 3 sig bn's CO is LTC Milton Ong... who happens to be the guy who impacted me the greatest during the only MCF session @ OCS, whilst we were still wee TST cadets sturggling to survive... and his words gave me much faith and somewhat some courage..
What's more.. now i hear that there's prob an active prayer group in 3 sig bn and well, apparently most of the PC's there are christians...

coincidence? i dunno...

2. suddenly this week, my sunday is completely free and BLANK, with utterly NO frens to go out with me or what.. (unlike the past few weeks).. me being unpopular? (ha! doubt so lah... =) -- but will talk about the separation and drifting apart of frens some other time). What this gives me, is time to concentrate and spend more time in church and find my ministry to go in... choir? or even going back to fellowship and start again? i dunno... but i am motivated... this change in life isn't like for nothing... it signals alot of possibilites and things that i should and must do...

so there..

aniwez, just to share a story that my pastor told us during sunday school today..

"remember the story about the wealthy landowner who gave 3 of his servants 5, 2 and 1 talents respectively, talents being the money at that time (but fittingly literal in our times). The servant who got 5 talents invested and got another 5, the servant with 2 talents did likewise and gained another 2. The servant who had 1 talent however, buried it in the soil and hecne when the landowner asked for the money to be accounted, he only produced 1 talent.

to the other 2 servants, he said they were loyal, faithful and good servant..

to the sevant who had 1 talent, he called him a lazy and wicked servant.."

lazy was used to describe his attitude towards work, and wicked was used to describe his character...

so what does this tell us in our life now?

God gave us talents to be used in his ministries... but if we are not going to be bothered to harvest and find them, or just waste our life away, we are going to be condemned likewise to be "lazy and wicked"...

foor for thought there...

reGards,
FraNk

about my job...

honestly i still can't put a nail on my current posting and well... hopefully i'll learn the ropes fast and well, get things going for me =)

realised that contrary to yesterday's 'lull' impression i got, logistics might not be THAT easy and well, i need to liaise with pretty much alot of pple and need to get to noe alot of pple.. which (eh-hm).. is somethkng i dun rally like to do at times (me being the partial a/s type of personality at times.. but well.. God put me here for a reason rite? and i'm trying to find it)

so yeah.. i'm learning away here in 3SIG whilst my pals are going shopping for CNY stuff (weihan) and playing tennis (royce/kevin).. hopefully it is all for good...

saw our UIP programme for 3SIG liao... SOC FAM?? sheesh... oh no.. honestly i realised i'm quite worried about my fitness levels and it's gonna drop real fast if i dun go and like be proactive and start exercising... so, run anyone?

must keep up cos now as officer.. really u start to understand that there is an iamge to keep up and its not like cadet i can say i am the darnded lousiest and go from behind and surprise others that hey, i'm actually not that bad... but here people EXPECT you to be good.. and well expectations fitness wise for me.. are gonna be hard to keep up.. so there... pray for me..

hopefully today ends soon and i get to enjoy my weekend.. =)

itching to play warcraft LOTA again.. =)

borED,
FranK

the feud between delta and foxtrot

well.. things have finally come to a close after a dismal and boring commissioning ball that honestly.. was screwed in many ways but i'm going to say more cos the people who worked on it really did alot for it.. so yeah.. thanks for your work...

but well.. there's still this lingering animorsity between delta and foxtrot guys.. which well.. has intensified furthered during the days where we have to work together as a cohort... and well.. the tension's so thick that u can cut it with ice...

it got so bad that really, we were clapping for our own people only and i'd bet many delta people were irate that foxtrot kept sweeping all the lucky draw prizes and were whispering that some conspiracy was going on...

[well that's until mr. lucky terrence pang got the top prize... as usual..

why am i not surprised? good posting, skirts trhough OCS in a breeze, loyal frens, loyal girlfren... why not top it off with a lucky draw prize...

befitting eh?

oh well i shall stop.. i sound so bitter and jealous...]

aniwez.. back to the feud, the comms ball itself is already a great bone of contention btween our wings, as we fetl foxtrot was during a SHIT job in organising this ball and like trying to take over the whole show without letting us give our input..

i mean... it was like literally asking us to "just be there and be a guest"...

POOH...

and well.. we didn't want to dance, but they added it in.. and in the end? their so called compulsory dance degenerated to a bland, less-than lukewarm response of a short waltz of less than 5 minutes..

PATHETIC...

and honestly.. delta people felt the pinch.. cos we wanted our comms ball to be COOL and GLITZY and GLAM.. and all we got was some 3rd rate hotel with 3rd rate food and well.. an undanced dance...

(i noe i'm being mean and very unforgiving like this but well.. just bear with it k? its not really 3rd rate but well... wadeva)

so comms ball was wrecked... but that's not all and drove the rift...

delta people just in general feel that they did much more sai-kang and much more shit-work whilst foxtrot got to do HCC and fun things like paintball and so on...

unfair rite? but why the hate to foxtrot? i mean, its not really their fault and them wanting to shirk duty noe.. (ok maybe some)

as thye heng put it.. "delta instructors don't know how to protect their people.. and that's why though delta works much harder, foxtrot got more SOMs.."

which honestly, is pretty true..

the third sore point? the fact that we feel foxtrot wing is one unbearably rude and ill-disciplined wing, of people we are like chao-ah bengs at times and just don't get decorum...

they make so much noise in class during lectures and just plain misbehave terribly, hooting around like hooligans during the psychologist lecture and what happens? the whole cohort takes the flak for it... gee

and what's more.. in a complete act of crying shame, it is a FOXTROT GUY who falls asleep during his OWN commissioning parade, drops his RIFLE and SCREWS the parade for everyone else who put in so much effort...

gee... thanks alot man... what a SCREWED UP 2LT u are.. u are a complete disgrace, just like your fellow foxtrot mate, whom in lancer just plainly cut the queue whilst we were washing our boots and said just anyhow chop chop wash then can liao, just wash the top...

i mean? stupid rite? the point of washing your boots isn't to make it LOOK clean? the point is to clean the bottom so u don't dirty the floor that u step onto later... so gee.. how smart of you to just "chop chop" wash... wayang so much for what?

.... so u understand the feud now?

one last point, probably most high tensioned was during the OM course AAR session were on hearing that Delta had made many comments about the course and how to improve it, foxtrot was generally in a general disgusted mood...

so when the course 2IC asks who said the objectives weren't clear and nigel and mel raised their hands, some idiotic cow from foxtrot goes "DELTA.."

and nigel, in clear retort goes, "YEAH?!"

and of course cows being cowards dun dare to turn back and look... IDIOT.

that's not all, to cap it off, the abyssmal idiot of a James tries to retort with his tear-inducing effort of a speech where he says...

"i think some people are being too demanding on what they want with the course, i think it's really very kind and professional of the instructors to come from so far and have the patience to teach us and well, it's really up to the person's attitude, whether or not he wants to know more and asks more questions, to really benefit from the course... So i think it was very unfair to make some of the comments and I personally felt very disgusted at some of them..."

-_-

HELLO? ATTITUDE? look at your own behavior during the OM course before you make a comment k? You think u paid DARN alot of attention when most of the times it was YOUR wing people who were DOZING OFF in the lectures like it was NOBODY'S BUSINESS?

AND PLEASE? can u open your puny ears and listen to the comments before you another just shoot crap from your mouth? all our comments were more on the content and NEVER did we say anything about the professionalism of the instructors (in fact we were very respectful of them) and NEVER ONCE did we say anything like "OM COURSE IS SHIT"... or something...

apparently this idiot knows nothing about constructive comments.. so... SCREW YOU

ok.. this is getting too venomous...i shall stop..

reGards,
FraNk~*

OM courzzzz....

OM course is honestly... USELESS... itz like really pointless...yawnz..

and those going JID and so on.. already all switch off liao.. talking in class like no one's business... (but that doesn't mean he didn't do so before that liao).. hmm.. him and his cronies (that one going to MSD)... it's something to be chatty in class and something completely else to not regard anyone else with respect and just heck people... it'z just plain rude lor..

but oh well. he has survived and thrived 19 years of his life so what's me (a pathetic slightly antisocial soul got to complain about him? yeah... UNFAIR? but life is unfair.. so honestly.. i'm not bothered alreadY liao..

speaking about postings, all the 6SIR pple are pretty miffed that their schedule is somewhat like 2 weeks confinement then 2 weeks off... and within the 14 days it is 11 days of POI and 3 days off... so yeah.. itz pretty ewww.. (that's the thing about jobs with shifts)

for me.. i duno even noe what's gonna happen.. hope to find out something today either from TCO or what.. dun think ANYONE is going to the same place as me.. so wadeva lah... as i've learnt the strength was NEVER in numbers... the more rare you are, the more power you have...

that's true in the army. ironically...

ok wadeva.. stop the musings..

fraNk

the big brothers eyes are upon us...

hmm.. ocs commander's unnerving talk about finding out all our secrets from our blogs has had many unnerved... cos well.. we dun really want people to noe some stuff we have written, esp when we have bitched about so-and-so or complained about how bad this whole thing is and so on...

which is actually pretty dumb ain't it?

i mean, isn't a blog there cos you WANT people to read it?

i can unashamedly admit that my blog is on solely i'm a semi-famewhore type of person who would like people to read about my life and comment about it etc, say how funny i am etc... (yeah rite)

or otherwise i would just keep a personal diary rite?

on other occasions it is just a way NOT to internalise and just vent your frustrations on people you know you either (a) cannot antagonize (b) don't want to ruin a relationship with... and hence, you blog... thinking the people reading it will only be your close frens and well.. maybe people from Somalia and Amsterdam who have not clue about whatever is going on and whomever you are describing and well.. just dropped by...

GET REAL... most prob the people you "drop by" are those you complain about... so well.. it's up to u to decided whether or not u wanna place it..

which is really wierd eh? we write a blog for our closest frens and strangers to read but not for those who noe us... hmmm...

wadeva lah.. random musings from a confused mind... this is the 2nd day i am living a "stay-out-young-2LT-officer" day liao.. hopefully the stay out part will last =)

and to those whom i have insulted on my blog... aiyah.. go and shout at the ocean or just go and die lah~!
and honestly..

i don't give two hoots about it.. HA!

reGards*
frAnk

implications of being an officer?

so officer liao lor =) pretty happy abt it though commisioning parade was a lil' screwed... but well..it was really the cap throwing that was kewl... =)

so now these few days living in a semi-officer mode... ie. like the transition ain't complete yet and we are like i dunno... 3LT? haha... but really.. the implications of our rise in rank never meant so much until now... and the responsibilities, roles and examples we have to set never seemt so heavy...

so now like seeing those dratted foxtrot people sleeping through lessons during OM or talking loud during the lecture, irritating those instructors (albeit they ARE quiote wierd these days -- yesterday was a semi-psychotic psychiatrist who really got into his role of emulating his patients... (which made me come up with a hypothesis on his career path), then today was a pretty arrogant-ish instructor whom was trying hopelessly to motivate us to be interested about OM..)

YAH RITE...

like OM is the next most interesting thing to watching my toenails grow? ....

i mean itz just not interesting!?? itz not about officership or what but you just cannot convince people to be enthusiatic about weapons maintenance!?

OH WELL.. suck thumb, give these people respect and just look attentive...

yawnz..

reGards,
FraNk

wonder why we booked in so early...

slacking in the bunks now not knowing what really to do.... cos we booked in at 7.30am just to realise there's no real programme from then till like 2.00pm.. so well.. SLACK?

but the slck culture in Delta is so unheard of.. most of us dunno what to do =) oh well.. it feels wierd... first time leh...

and it has to be on the last day (roll eyes)

the OM course we will be attending next week seems to be rather cadet-ish in the way the ask as to behave.. fall in and etc.. and what disciplinary action... hello? shouldn't we already noe liao? what's this cadet-ish treatment for?

then after that will be going to Jurong Camp where i've heard that it is a stay-out job... YAY! will try to learn driving asap so as not to burden my parents any further..

feel really bad i had to make my parents come to casmp twice todae cos i forgot to bring some No. 1 uniform accessories... ARGGHH!!! Why am i such a spoilt brat!?! sheesh.... my parents are really too nice to me...

and i really thank them for their love man..

peace out,
Frank

ACPC photos

(from left - Linus/me/Jia Wei/LTA Goh/Weiyang/J Bay/Royce/Jack Jack)



(too many to name lah! Old Plt 2!)



(from left - Royce/me/Mojo/Yi Kiat)



(from left - Boon Peng/me/Qiyang/Edgar/Royce/Yi Kiat)

on a VERY HAPPY note..

i have finished comms mag liao!!!! YIPEE!!

AND...

TMR'S COMMISSIONING DAY!!!


REgARDS..
A slightly sickly FraNk (why is it some pple like my buddy can guzzle down tons of junk food per week and not have any ailments whilst i develop a sore throat after each harmless amounts of twisties?!?! unfair man!)

finally a good episode of amazing race

i was starting to really get sick of TAR (mind you, my favourite show), with all the explosive whinings, bitchings, bunching ups and just plain boring abusiveness of Jonathon...

THANK GOODNESS FOR EPISODE SIX..

Ethiopia proved to be a superb casting location unexpectedly...and well.. this was the first time in TAR history that the episode was heart warming and heart wrenching...

the innocent goodness of the ethiopians and the religiousness of the people there was very touching especially the scene of Hayden and the boy that held her hand and led her out.. these people are so NICE!! they are like.. well... this is true hospitality, without a taint or smear of manipulation or scheming or something bad that somehow our society has been plagued with..

Ethiopia was beautiful and the church hewned into the rock was even more amazing... sigh.. makes me wanna go to ethiopia eh?

and to cap off a good episode, Jonathon and Vic finally get booted!!! YAY!!! their incessant tirade was really getting on everyone's nerves and their departure lifts a huge burden off the show in terms of the abusiveness we are watching... but honestly, about Jon and Vic, i really think.. somehow.. that they are MADE for each other... despite how Jon abuses Vic... cos yeah.. Vic pretty much abuses Jon and hyper-ventilates so darn much... so yeah.. i have no pity for either one of them..

GOOD RIDDANCE.

hopefully now the show will get back to its ol' goodness and well... captivate more audience... just stop the darnded bunching ups k?!?


Rock church in Lalibela, Ethiopia

DIET TIME!!!

OK.. this is not fair... just one week of relative slackness and my pull-up count has plunged to like 6?!?!

eeeks!

and that's not all.. to add insult to injury, a whopping total of

3 PEOPLE

have called me fat in this week. the worse being Nigel saying that it looked like fats was spilling out of my pants....

ARGGGGH!!!

(OK MAKE THAT 5 people thanks to KAIWEI and DA HUA who just commented whilst they were beside me)

-_-

so.. simple... new resolutions for a new year

1. everytime i see people eating in their bunks or something, i like do 20 push-ups and 20 sit-ups... (but no double counting of food!!)

2. run as regularly as possible in my new camp, like around the camp a few times when there is time.. dun procrastinate!!

3. STOP DELUDING YOURSELF THAT YOU ARE EATING BACK WHAT YOU LOST IN BRUNEI and hence, gorging during the weekends!!
It's obvious you have overdone it!!

sheesh..

ok.. wish me luck

reGards,
FraNk

Stop the DrattEd SpamMings...

To those who leave stop crap messages on my blog tag-board..

GROW UP

my previous post just got wiped out.. sheesh.. writing later lah.. now need to go back for more parades... SHEESH

frANK

countdown...

5 more days!!

here i am at the cadet mess beside royce the noise, who has an ELF NAME for himself and his girlfren...

~*roll eyes*~

HOW saccharine can he get?!?

aniwez these few days have just been a constant barrage of parade rehearsals after rehearsals where it has been really quite sianz liao.. pooh.. but well, my hor-mats aren't dat bad so.. that's a good thing?

stayed up till 1.00pm yesterday (or is it today) doing the pbloody comms mag which honestly is still darn far from completion...

STOP BUGGERING ME Y'ALL!!! i will finish in good time k?!?

sheesh... stop asking about my comms mag k? and this expecially applies to ANY INSTRUCTORS who have in he course of this times hampered my progress by FALLING US IN FOR AN INORDINATELY LONG TIME, whining about getting 7 extras and blaming us for that..

i mean? it wasn't our fault!? so what's the point of venting your anger on us?

but yeah.. as Mel Mel says... don't care, don't bother, don't see...

5 dayz aniwez till our shoulders get heavier..

reGards,
FraNk

where can i buy abercrombie and fitch stuff?

anyone noes where i can find this elusive brand of clothing besides in us?

cos.. yeah.. i wanna buy them?



(to those who dun realize.. this is a pathetic attempt to brighten up my otherwise dull page... pple say there's too much text.. HELLO? isn't this a blog?)

ACPC

I got my sword!!! kewl!!!

will write abt it once I have photos! =)

ACPC and dining in was really unique cos it transformed places we commonly went to into high-class dining locations and magical backgrounds...

and well... having fine dining in a place where we normally hurridely gobbled down our food without much ettiquette was also a good change... finally got to talk not army-ish stuff doing dinner and well.. ENJ0Y MY FOOD in OCS... the first time eh?

got to talk to Nigel and get to noe him better.. hehe..

sigh.. now that commisioning is so close... and the countdown dwindles into single digits of days... starting to realize this means an almost definite separation from all these pals and close frens of mine in the past 9 months... these familiar faces whom shared every morsel of time and space and suffered the same shit i went through will soon fade into the backgrounds as memories...

sigh... and really.. today was where i realized its not like sec school going jc or what.. where there is still a high chance of meeting up... we are people who were drawn close purely due to national service and well.. very rarely will there be other chances..

but really.. hopefully will keep in contact and continue these really precious frendships..

THAT'S WHY MY COMS MAG IS SO DARN IMPORTANT AND I'M HARD PRESSED!!

wadever for now...
de_sentimentalist signing out...
frAnk

random thoughts...

say u are the commander of ocs and you come across the particular cadet, who is simply exemplary in many ways and is a truly inspirational and great leader whose skills are darn kilat...in fact, you can see he single handedly supported his foxtrot platoon and was like THE personality of the platoon.. plus, he's the SSM, did a great job, got Wing Best in Foxtrot as well as Best Knowledge (grr..), and well... is going to commission in two weeks time...

then.. you hear news from one of your ex-officer cadet mean-spirited manpower CLERK who comes across this guy's curriculum vitae and smells something amiss...

"11 'A' level subjects? Dad studied at Yale and Mum at Harvard?... sounds fishy"

and this mean-spirited cadet goes to dig a little more further and finds out..

*gasp*

the exemplary cadet faked some portions of his curriculum vitae.. ie. LIED!! Where has his integrity gone to?! how can you commission an officer cadet who lied about his results just to get into OCS? he is a mockery of the SAF 7 core values!

.....

so what will you do? expel the cadet? remove his wing best and best knowledge? or let the matter just rest?

will you side with CAMP A... whose stand is that one's merit in the course should negate this small fact..

1. honestly speaking, there are MANY more cadets who infringe on the 7 core values (like my buddy) by simply lying or covering up mistakes or whatever.. so what would you do to them? expel all of them till OCS is empty?

2. this guy PROVED his worth and weight in GOLD... he was exemplary and his conduct was good, consistent throughout the way... besides this small lie.. he never really showed a tendency to repeat such an infringment..

3. this guy was truly a asset to the army with regards to his knowledge and management skills

4. to put so much effort in faking such results only shows further how much he wanted to get in...

5. talking about DESERVING to commission.. i think there are many more people that deserve it less than him... WHAT message are we trying to send out? that ONE mistake is enough to SCREW you over?

or will you agree with mean-spirited cadet and well.. the OCS Commander, in Camp B, that...

1. we are sending a message across that people can fake results and then perform well and then get away with it.. are we promoting such things? esp since he is a regular.. this is like fradulating your own results in the real coporate world (i would think in the real coporate world such a person would be deemed a very valuable asset)

2. according to the words of commander ocs, "we cannot allow people to just pay lip service to the SAF core values..." (??)..

honestly... i dun't think this cadet should have been expelled.. but oh well.. what's it for me to see.. i'm going to be a small fry Dy S4 in 3 SIG Bn... so..

(btw.. what's it i hear about 3 SIG Bn being very xiong and very demanding etc... oh man...)

regards,
Frank

Can someone explain...

What does

3 SIG BN -- DY S4

possibly entail?

oh well... crap.. i dunno what the heck it is.. hell.. no one is going along with me..

i noe i'm a person of much ironies and pretty much can't make up my mind most of the times.. but well..

i just dun feel too happy...

crap..

Parades are darn sian

people.. this is the FIRST time since the week that we actually have a miniscule break after countless of brain-numbing parade rehearsals and ACPC rehersals... i mean, i understand parade rehersals.. but to spend a whole afternoon on ACPC??

i mean.. do we really need to go into the nitty-gritties of fine dining? oh well.. i thought normally pple just "rise to the occasion" (yeah.. like Boner-man) but well, apparently some people think we need practice.. =)

OH WELL.. at least i'm taking the parade better than most? cos for one, i think SSM is mightily funny with his acrid comments and.. well.. just the way he expresses himself, like his villianish "he-he-he..", his "bloody swine, maggot"... like the way he shakes his head in despair at some cadet's screwed up marching, and when he tries to imitate them as well...

and for another.. parades are pretty staff-free... cos i'm currently in contigent one (hopefully it stays that way).. and well.. the WSM in charge of us is pretty nice.. so there... itz pretty ok stifling laughters during the parade3 and just hoping time will pass fast...

the only buggeration is the morning 5BXes.. that delta seems to consider a religion... and really, to those who think delta is a scholar wing...

THINK AGAIN...

we are MIGHTILY STUPID... we stupidly follow all the bloody instructions to the T without any flexibility or considerations that we are tired or we are like disinterested or something.. gosh.. like the way we treat 5BX like a prayer ritual or something.. and we have to STREEETCH the time to so far...

again a staff problem lah huh?

oh well.. 11 more days to go.. so.. suck thumb again lor..

still dunno my posting... but haf to go liao.. (yeah the break is THAT short)..

pray for my stiffening up body.. hehe

regARds,
Frank

A beautiful song...

"Could we ink the ocean fill,
and were the skies of parchment made,
were every stalk on earth a quill,
and every man a scribe by trade,
to write the love of God above,
would drain the ocean dry,
nor could the scroll contain the whole,
though stretched from sky to sky"

ain't it beautiful? sang it at church today @ cantonese congregation... and well.. really.. God's grace on me has been great the past year.. and still is.. may I continue to learn from life's lesson yet never be arrogant.. and always follow God closely along the path of my life...

I should be knowing my posting this week... pretty apprehensive as it could lead to very varied paths for my this next year of life...

life @ 19..

- a PC life filled with much adversities, challenges and problems where really I would have to combine all my wits, resources and physical strength to battle it out and come out learning much and enriched with much of life's wisdom... feeling contented yet knowing I sacrificed alot of time on it?

or

- a office-bound job with little attachments, lots of time for myself to learn driving, cars, to get my chao-keng's frenz envy by doing little in a cushy office yet earning much... yet in myself feeling a little cheated.. a little discontented that I spent the previous year suffering and learning so much for this?..

or something in between?

i dunno... all i noe is that God will provide and hopefully I can learn, through his guidance on the many lessons of life littered on...

reGards..(and going back to camp)
frank

"life's replete with lessons.. it is whether you open your eyes and your mind to see them"

PAC thoughts

1. PAC

some bug has apparently bitten me.. or something.. i dunno.. but something motivated me to say an "inspirational speech" to the platoon juz b4 PAC... and den whilst we were at the range and realized we were trailing too far during our fast march, I was encouraged to say a few words again.. hee..

"guys.. I'm not a sucker for motivational speeches and I know neither are all of you all... but honestly.. let's just put our best effort in.. cos Cpt Chua's leaving soon and well.. what better farewell present to give him than to show that we are a platoon that truly believes in ourselves and puts in our hearts and souls into completing this mission united as one? It would be more moving to him than to win lor... so yeah.. for him, for us.. and for one another.. let's just do our best..."

wonder why i said that...

have I really been unwittingly influenced by Cpt Chua?

or is it that I see something uncannily similar between him and me? The intelligent idealist thrust into army with high and noble concepts and "ethos" that can move us and motivate us to do things and hence we try to communicate it to the rest for them to achieve it as well?

I dunno what has happened to me.. a thirst to prove myself? to show Cpt Chua I'm worth it?

it's not about being garang or kilat or "siao-on"... i dunno.. but more like feeling shiok after coming back from doing something you feel you put in your best effort... a feeling i felt in StARLIGHt, in all the long distance runs, in all my improving 2.4s? (and it is this precise reason that I get so pissed off with Staff when he unflinchingly puts down such "achievements"...)

oh well.. so PAC wasn't that successful as we would have hoped... I guess many of us go daunted by the "image" of the rest of the platoons.. i mean foxtrot people are a disagreeable, unruly, undisciplined lot whom i detest working with, but they look and seem united and strong.. and dELTA Plt 3 has shown to be stronger than us in aspects like fast marching and ATP... so it didn't seem very likely we were gonna win...

but then? I thought Cpt Chua's selection of CPC and CPS was unwise... instead of just choosing people who were at a height disadvantage... he should have chosen the MOST influential people of the platoon to take on the role... THAT would be the main factor to keep the platoon moving..

and what better person than Melvin as CPC? and probably Royston as CPS? Melvin alone can whip up a frenzy with the platoon... but instead we had Boon Peng.. who honestly wasn't a bad choice.. but a simple fact that he couldn't reach out to everyone in the platoon was a bad thing... then we had Yi Kiat.. whom honestly i feel completely epitomizes the phrase "empty vessels make the most noise"... enough said..

of course... the way Delta was ran also screwed us over... what with staff and WSM getting us to do sai-kang every other second... there wasn't much time to do any form of preparation.. everything was discussed in such a chop-chop way... no rehearsals so on.. no innovative means of improving etc..

and we paid for it lor.. esp at SOC, low wall.. where Harry got stuck..

but well.. what's the point of hoping for a miracle amidst a pretty much splintered platoon from the start and till that time? Cpt Chua so really wanted a platoon with UNITY... but sadly.. different hearts beat together in this same body... how to achieve a platton that BELIEVES?

i mean... speaking to some ex-Sierra people.. all they say is..

"Delta is a place where I learn what not to be"

"if it was Sierra.. then i'd pour my heart and soul out"...

sigh.. like dat how to be united and win PAC... even if we really got our act together.. it would just be a charade...

oh well... no point pondering over such a sad plight... things happened... people remained insensitive and unwilling to break out of their shells... cliques remained and never broke... and so.. this is what we have today...

PAC? my motive was to get the platoon back united and euphoric that we put in our bests efforts...

I think most of us felt we did amidst our tiredness at the end.. so yeah.. there was some form of saving grace...

reGards..
FrAnK

Hauntings of the guy named S***

**major bitchfest yet again**

{i) the 8km fast march..

WHY in the world did u have to join us?!?! we didn't need you, your ranger stupidity or your pathetic taunts and "inspirational speeches" at all... it made things much worse in fact...

"Guys.. I'd be following your pace..."

YAH RITE..

3 minutes into the fast march, and you start telling us to speed up at parts then slow down then speed up again...

HELLO!?! U got any sense of "constant speed is better than chiong then slacken a bit"?!? We were doing perfectly fine and clocking good timings until your stupid shit of an antic forced us to hasten our pace, then slow down back, hence tiring ourselves out neccesarily... GEE THANKS

and what was it about you letting us set the pace?

then you start your idiotic (probably ranger-inspired) "SBO" chants that just completely has the reverse effect on many.. well esp me.. HERE'S one big piece of news for you...

"WE ARE NOT YOUR FELLOW RANGER PALS NOR ARE WE SOME DUMB RECUITS YOU CLAIM THAT HAD COMPLETE TRUST IN YOU WHILST YOU WERE PS..."

the worse thing is the irritating "wa-yang" kia Teen starts adopting your stupid phrase too.. such that by the start of the third round "SBO" is like chanted every other second... oh well...

SHUT UP!

oh.. and that's not all.. your stupidity and egoistical nature surges again and ROBS us of our precious 15 minutes rest where you cannot stop your sick blabbering about.. well.. pretty much the same stupid things..

"...RANGER course hah... we DID MUCH MORE TOUGH THINGS..."

"...GUYS... THIS IS REALLY.. CHICKEN FEET LIAO... IT'S LIKE NOTHING THE PACE... those parts where we went fast are the true fast marching speed..."

"... TRUST ME.. BELIEVE IN MY METHOD K... blah blah..."

"Come on.. CHALLENGE ME... make me feel tired!... AS an OFFICER you must..."

gee.. see.. by wasting our precious 7 minutes of our rest time, you managed to

(a) PRAISE your almighty RANGER-ish skills and oh how great you are..

PLEASE... if u were so darn good at leadership and motivating people (which you of course are NOT), then you would have come to OCS in the first place or would have at least ascended the WOSE corps ranks higher..

(b)DE-MOTIVATE us by be-littling our achievements and making us feel ashamed that we are tired...

gee... YET AGAIN huh? do u actually understand the meaning of MOTIVATION?!?

STOP TELLING US THAT OUR BEST EFFORTS are CHICKEN-SHIT!!! WE KNOW YOU ARE DARN PHYSICALLY GOOD AND YOU ARE SO KILAT IN YOUR OUT-FIELD SKILLS... but.. SO!?

do u actually think i could give it a flipping care?

does that make you ten tiers higher than the rest of us?

STOP RUBBING YOUR ATHLETIC PROWESS INTO OUR TIRED FACES WILL YOU?

... so you waste our precious time.. and well.. the next round starts.. this time I'm in front cos I really can't fast march for nuts..

and you have to taunt me for walking slowly..

"COME ON FRANK.. ARE U GIVING UP?"..

... on a chance to scratch the eyes out of your arrogant face? NEVER.

"HEY... MAKE ME BREAK A SWEAT MAN... PUT SOME PRESSURE... THIS IS NOTHING!"

sheesh...

(ii) Doing all the shit sai-kang..

Honestly.. I dunno whether its you are your superior who is putting us trhough all these rubbish.. but honestly.. ALL THESE is making me SICK OF LIVING IN DELTA... you all are making us WISH these 2 weeks flew by without much reminiscing.. when we should be recollecting and remembering all the cool things we did..

and yeah.. i AM counting down...

15 MORE DAYS

can u please stop asking us to RE-ARRANGE all the bloody furniture in your store room? itz like the 3RD fricking time we are doing it!!!

HOW MANY TIMES MUST YOU MAKE US MOVE YOUR MISERABLE PRECIS??! IT has like gone to a 3rd location liao!

sheesh.. its a pathetic waste of time.. time that could have been used learning the comissioning songs or doing other more meaningful stuff.. and not DELAYED until 1500hrs TODAY...

sheesh..

do u realize that you are like the most unpopular piece of SHIT left in the wing?

why can't u just exude a little bit of "congeniality" and friendliness?

or is it just alien to u? and you must go..

"drag your rifle one more time and you down twenty..."

and that is within the first 10 seconds of the drill lesson..

ok.. wadever.. i'm losing steam.. i sick of it but i'm not going to let YOU get onto my nerves... you ain't WORTH IT.. just that everything some shit falls on us.. we just go.. "STAFF..." 15 days...

gee...
FRaNK

Marathon Week

phew.. this week was really a marathon week... the total distance we travelled?

32.9 km

plus all the "hen-ta-ta-ki"s we did for both the Comissioning Parade Rehearsals as well as the drills practice the night before with our sadistic WSM..

still.. the loathe i am developing for him cannot compare with the one I have for Staff... but that's another sotry... (another bitch-fest to be exact)

so we did a 6km run, 8km fast march, 10km run, 2.4km run, 8.5km PAC... and well.. not that I'm complaining.. but our legs were really sore... but well.. i pretty much enjoyed the runs cos it has become comparatively MUCH of a breeze...

i think i would died at the notion of a 10km run in JC... pooh.. me? who couldn't even decently finish the 5km run around MacRitchie for our school's jog-a-thon or smth? hehe... now it'z pretty breezy.. and well.. i had to struggle with leg cramps and falling down but it was still pretty kewl... =)

I'm ok.. juz one titchy problem

no time to major btich or something.. but just to calm people down from reading the last post...

I'm NOT SUICIDAL (to people who think i am, I'M PRETTY INSULTED.. i ain't dat mentally weak k? a comms mag wun hurt that much!)

I'm not GIVING UP ON COMMS MAG.. i just dumped everything onto Bay.. so good luck =).. but aniwez I'm pwetty confident of his capabilities and quite sure he will work on it.. =)

so yeah.. the only titchy problem is.. I NEED A DATE FOR COMMS BALL!!!

sheesh.. i'm serious... i'm pwetty desperate as well... cos the girl i wanna invite is not replying to my sms-es.. and when i musteres enuf courage to call.. i kena a hung tone..

hmm... is that a purposeful rejection or just cos the phone rang during class or smth??

i dunno.. and seriously.. i'm worried... but... yeah..hopefully things will be fine..

frAnk

i'm dead...

ok... it's official... let's crash and burn..

sigh.. and i'll now have to face the repercussions...

oh well.. there's only 2 things i can do

1. try to salvage it, swallow my pride, do a smaller project, eliminate the cd, try to consolidate my losses...

2. learn from this failure and never ever make such mistakes again...

a. never put all eggs in one basket
b. always plan well and think of all the factors that need to be done, not blindly concentrating on one only.
c. always have contingency plans and substitutes for various members
d. push for deadlines
e. be decisive when making decisions... it MUST be done
f. when we must sacrifice somethings even though we hate it (like weekends), it still has to be done... i noe we volunteered, and it sucks to have to do extra work.. but do we have a choice?
e. everyone must be on the same page and have a common goal...

sigh... really gloomy and stunned now..
can't really think

need somewhere to hide and cry.. but where?

i dunno what went wrong.. i want to lash out.. but at my friends?!

its largely my fault as well.. i sucked as a leader... and well.. itz a good lesson to learn again.. thatz the biggest thing I must learn from it

i really dunno... i just pray God, You will guide me through these dark times and let me be able to finish the project at hand...

the worse thing is that my anger and pent-up stress is being unleashed at my innocent family members and I feel darn guilty and terrible.. why!?!

troubleD,
frank

I haTe tHis CoM!

I hate my home computer.. which has seemingly waged a war on hapless me just when I am in ultra stress over the bloody comms magazine...

i miss my lap-top.. but jeremy took it to do the comms mag.. AND HE'D BETTER DO IT or honestly.. I'd scratch his eyes out

(-_-)

today had much progress in terms of contents of the mag.. chose the general photoes liao.. hopefully it'll be fine.. cos now the final product lies in the hands of two people whom I CANNOT ABSOLUTELY CONTACT VIA SMS

talk about new technology and its reliancy... BULLSHIT.

SMS rarely works and my computer just loves to hang itself on me when I am merely browsing photos... SHEESH

gee.. so my whole new year's day was spent like dat... ~*roll eyes!~

and ~*drumroll!~

THANKS CHIYU!!!

so long..
fRanK

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thaksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus"

Philippians 4: 6-7

HaPpY NeW Year!~

To all those celebrating and wadeva, spare a thought and a few moments of prayer who those affected by the tsunamis...but remember to HAVE FUN! =)

I have my bloody comms mag to worry about and i think its really gonna run aground.. my members just don;t want to listen to me and they're not producing their work.. I feel like a FIRST CLASS FAILURE...

i really suck as a leader rite?

aniwez i told all to come to my house tmr... i really wanna see who will come... if no one comes, I can jusr cry and concede that the mag is a GONNER... if some come.. then we'll try to pull thru.. and you are a fren indeed...

a worried..
FrAnk

OH YAH..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

JACK!!!



thanks for being such a fun and friendly person to be with esp in Brunei!!! frenz foreve and thnx for the forsted choco malt! =).. ok lah.. u can demand the same when my bday comes again =)

Adidas

Hmmm...

I'm not too happy with adidas.

Remember the $49.00 polo-tee i bought last time that I was darn proud of? the adidas one? well.. my mom showed me today that the thread from one of the sleeves had run off...

"see.. your so called branded shirt... what happened"

-_- gee thanks..

and well.. looks like i haf to postpone buying an adidas originals shoe.. cos i stupidly forgot to bring my wallet back from camp... that's me ... whatever I touch will do the copperfield act once in a while...

sheesh..

wadeva, sleepy.
fRaNK~