feeling utterly incompetent.

what a TERRIBLE finale.

and a unimaginably HORRID ending, with farmbot winning, THEN showing us her win was so undeserving by screwing up "Inside Your Heaven" with plethora of flat notes and unintelligible bawls.

-_-

methinks 90% of kodak theatre felt so too, cos the clapping and cheering was unnervingly soft, and the shocked, angry faces of many people in the audience was pretty evident.

oh well, so Simon now u have your wish, go on and market her and fail YET again ala Ruben/Fantasia.

the war ain't over.

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ok, so aniwez, LRI is finally upon us. (i honestly am going "phew" cos this ends a nigtmare of inspections after inspections and ridiculous mounds of paperwork and back-tracing of documents.)

but honestly, I'm pretty disappointed at myself.

right now, my RQ and my own sergeant-inspectors are still slogging it out at companty line trying to make the documents match and referrenced.

yet i dunno how to help.

i'm simply TOO inexperienced, and TOO overwhelmed to help. and hence, I sit at the side at times, glancing at their work, offering them some moral support and asking if they want tea or so on. and yeah, promising them their deserved offs upon hearing their anguished pleas.

sigh... it doesn't feel good to have the power, yet completely be outta the loop.

such that you see people of lower rank and pay rushing around and working up a frenzy trying to fix mistakes and do up documents and yet you are sitting on the sofa wondering what to do next, or waiting for the next email to appear.

oh well, really hope I can learn as much as possible from them, such that next time I'll be able to at least hold my own and manage the place properly...

frank