PAC thoughts

1. PAC

some bug has apparently bitten me.. or something.. i dunno.. but something motivated me to say an "inspirational speech" to the platoon juz b4 PAC... and den whilst we were at the range and realized we were trailing too far during our fast march, I was encouraged to say a few words again.. hee..

"guys.. I'm not a sucker for motivational speeches and I know neither are all of you all... but honestly.. let's just put our best effort in.. cos Cpt Chua's leaving soon and well.. what better farewell present to give him than to show that we are a platoon that truly believes in ourselves and puts in our hearts and souls into completing this mission united as one? It would be more moving to him than to win lor... so yeah.. for him, for us.. and for one another.. let's just do our best..."

wonder why i said that...

have I really been unwittingly influenced by Cpt Chua?

or is it that I see something uncannily similar between him and me? The intelligent idealist thrust into army with high and noble concepts and "ethos" that can move us and motivate us to do things and hence we try to communicate it to the rest for them to achieve it as well?

I dunno what has happened to me.. a thirst to prove myself? to show Cpt Chua I'm worth it?

it's not about being garang or kilat or "siao-on"... i dunno.. but more like feeling shiok after coming back from doing something you feel you put in your best effort... a feeling i felt in StARLIGHt, in all the long distance runs, in all my improving 2.4s? (and it is this precise reason that I get so pissed off with Staff when he unflinchingly puts down such "achievements"...)

oh well.. so PAC wasn't that successful as we would have hoped... I guess many of us go daunted by the "image" of the rest of the platoons.. i mean foxtrot people are a disagreeable, unruly, undisciplined lot whom i detest working with, but they look and seem united and strong.. and dELTA Plt 3 has shown to be stronger than us in aspects like fast marching and ATP... so it didn't seem very likely we were gonna win...

but then? I thought Cpt Chua's selection of CPC and CPS was unwise... instead of just choosing people who were at a height disadvantage... he should have chosen the MOST influential people of the platoon to take on the role... THAT would be the main factor to keep the platoon moving..

and what better person than Melvin as CPC? and probably Royston as CPS? Melvin alone can whip up a frenzy with the platoon... but instead we had Boon Peng.. who honestly wasn't a bad choice.. but a simple fact that he couldn't reach out to everyone in the platoon was a bad thing... then we had Yi Kiat.. whom honestly i feel completely epitomizes the phrase "empty vessels make the most noise"... enough said..

of course... the way Delta was ran also screwed us over... what with staff and WSM getting us to do sai-kang every other second... there wasn't much time to do any form of preparation.. everything was discussed in such a chop-chop way... no rehearsals so on.. no innovative means of improving etc..

and we paid for it lor.. esp at SOC, low wall.. where Harry got stuck..

but well.. what's the point of hoping for a miracle amidst a pretty much splintered platoon from the start and till that time? Cpt Chua so really wanted a platoon with UNITY... but sadly.. different hearts beat together in this same body... how to achieve a platton that BELIEVES?

i mean... speaking to some ex-Sierra people.. all they say is..

"Delta is a place where I learn what not to be"

"if it was Sierra.. then i'd pour my heart and soul out"...

sigh.. like dat how to be united and win PAC... even if we really got our act together.. it would just be a charade...

oh well... no point pondering over such a sad plight... things happened... people remained insensitive and unwilling to break out of their shells... cliques remained and never broke... and so.. this is what we have today...

PAC? my motive was to get the platoon back united and euphoric that we put in our bests efforts...

I think most of us felt we did amidst our tiredness at the end.. so yeah.. there was some form of saving grace...

reGards..
FrAnK