what a day.

my men never fail to find new things that force me to have to scold them. which is what i honestly hate to do. why can't people all be nice, live life to their fullest, do their part, not be in a perpetual "i-need-a-break" mode, stop hankering for off and early releases for the minutest of things?!

i had a whole bunk of people oversleeping till 9 today. hence missing a bn run, which I personally came to down run to ensure one of the fatter guys came to run.

guess not. -_-

then another guy who took urgent leave yesterday, comes to office in a dazed mode and heads to bed for the whole morning.

when i ask him what happens, he strings along a whole series of unfortunate events and tells me "i-need-a-break", so i took urgent leave. sigh.

then i go attend a meeting and when i come back, one guy nearly dies on me. he lies there morose and cold, eyes tearing and whimpering, occasionally mustering enough energy to clench his chest and gesture pain.

apparently some guys were teasing him and then they started fooling around and he suddenly collasped, thanks to his asthma. =(

then after lunch during midday parade, some guy mysteriously disappears. he is not in bunk oversleeping, neither is he in any of the toilets or whatever, and he remains uncontactable. and it's not the first time.

sigh. can people just honestly have a little more maturity and responsibility for such things?

frank

inside the boardroom...

today i got a feeling of what it was like to be in Donald Trump's boardroom.. or at least something like that...

cos today was where we appealed/deliberated on the inspection results with the inspectorates. so we each put on our masks of friendliness and understandingness as we acted out this masquerade, or at least that was how i saw it.

it's always the inspectorates claiming they are here to help us and we are their customers and deserve their utmost attention.

and it's always us claiming that it is indeed very important to listen to such suggestions and learn from them. that each observation has much value and can get things done, so, no harm done man. i'm glad for observations.

yah rite.

honestly, when it comes to the crunch, who the heck would want a demerit point slammed on his face? or a dismal grading in several aspects? who would want the inspectorates to find anything!?

and well, you can see that the inspectorates must have suffered quite a bit at every LRI, having to battle the strong wills of COs and S4s alike, with their cries of appeals and unfairness. they were ULTRA defensive about their report, always referring back to the checklist, always assuring us it was not due to personal reasons, and always deploring us to understand the rationale of the inspections, the "help us help u" concept.

wadeva. ultimately, these pitiful people remind me of the heyday tax collectors in Rome, as depicted in the bible.

oh well.. aniwez, the bitter argument today first surfaced over the demerit point, which honestly, we couldn't really argue. so after much indignant exclaimations (which faded to desperate begging), we lost the case. US 0 - Inspectorate 1

then came the volcano eruption, when one inspector mentioned we had no "system" to monitor some particular work process, due to the fact that we lacked certain charts and the personnels didn't know much about the process.

at that, he was straight away jumped at by our side, sternly criticising him for his choice of words, whereby he was indicating a complete lapse of system due to a mere lack of clear documents - which clearly couldn't be the case as all our jobs WERE done well.

so with much finesse and skill, our speaker battled off whatever pathetic attempts the other side made, and forced the inspector to admit, albeit very grudgingly, that there WAS a system.

poor thing. but i really admire the speaker from our side. he was darn "seh", and forcefully got his point through. I guess the rest of the inspectors were also pretty glad it wasn't them receiving the barrage of objections. which reminded me of The Apprentice.. haha

some people can pretty much KILL during boardroom meetings. and today i met one.

frank

world of paradox

it's a real wierd situation now.

i can't decide whether to thrust myself completely back into the army world, be garang and completely interested in my work, stay-in everyday and mingle around with the other stay-in officers whom play badminton to while time away, go to mess and play pool, run around the camp everday, eat cookhouse food 24/7 and save lots and lots of money.

and perhaps be more disciplined and get closer to God.

or should i pull myself back to the civillian world, and commit myself to things that will be of much use to me in the future, like complete my driving lessons, meet up friends at night, research on universities and the likes of it, plan my europe trip and spend more time with my family?

but then i'll be like a really pathetic officer whom everyday really rushing to go back home, cannot really connect with my men and my fellow officers, live an army life filled with much solitude and emptiness.

sigh.

maybe can strike a balance?

be garang at work yet manage to spend time with my family?

being an officer does have priviledges and gives you the freedom to make choices.

but for undisciplined people like me, it sometimes ain't that good a thing.

but hey, maybe that's the lesson to be learnt. to not require external elements to discipline oneself. =)

but ultimately, i really wanna regain the closeness to God that i felt in J2 as well as during my OCS days, where I was literally hanging by a thread in many scenarios and really praying for God's blessings...

fraNK

the undomestic goddess

Sophie Kinsella has a new book! but well.. not buying it YET, waiting for the paperback to come out before reading, must save money liao.. sigh..

to those who might feel utterly horrified that guys as actually reading girlish fluff like Sophie Kinsella.. well.. u're missing out.

Sophie Kinsella is wickedly funny, but well, she seems to have lost her touch with Shopaholic and Sis.

and well honestly, I'm starting to think that alot of guys are like sneakily reading the shopaholic series and finding it a riot as well. why?

hehe.

1. what's this rise of brand-consciousness in the male populace in Singapore all about? the sad sad article in newspapers talking about this guy who amassed 20 pairs of branded shoes from like Gucci and so on, and is only at the age of 20.

i nearly lurched when i read to that point. -_-

wah liao! so darn brand conscious for what!? not like people can see your shoe and then like exclaim that it is Prada or something!? then like what, buy 11 more then can wear one every day of the month?!

*~rolls eyes~*

but that's not all.

2. an earlier newspaper article also cited some brattishly rich kids spending loads and loads on their definition of ultra-kewl urban hip wear from brands like a slurping ape and so on... and then they go after shoes that are limited edition which cost up to $1000... and they have no qualms buying them just to feel unique.

wow. $1000 on shoes!? looks like guys have overtaken gals in terms of brand consciousness AS WELL AS splurging.

oh well. see what i mean now?!

so i won't find it wierd if guys actually read the shopaholic series, and find alot of similarities within.. hehe

so to the guy that has bought, in just a month:-
- 01 Ralph Lauren polo tee
- 01 A/X tee
- 01 Guess tee
- 01 Levi's jeans
- 02 Adidas sneakers

and now has literally gone bankrupt for the month.. errm.. DO read shopaholic and possibly learn... =) YOU know who u are...

franK

reality tv flounders

so with the end of american idol, this caps off a pretty dismal season of reality tv.

let's recap.

Amazing Race 7 - Romber LOSES. and whines about it, throwing up airplane conspiracies and self-congratulatory speeches at being the "most deserving", then using the all too familiar "i think i'm the biggest winner of reality tv show"

DUDE. you. lost.

stop your fricking whining that makes you look even more like a pathetic loser tard.

and dun ever appear on our TV screens again.

Survivor 10 - Tom wins, tons of people quit, a whole tribe gets decimated, a survivor gets the distinct honour of being the first survivor to get FAT through the season, more people quit and the most duh! finale ever.

pathetic.

CBS should implement a rule saying that those quit will be eaten up by Katie.

oh wait. maybe that's what happened.

American Idol 4 - VFTW becomes highly acclaimed after sending Scott straight into Final 5, a robot wins the competition thanks to Simon's mega-pimping, Constantine's UBER shocked face at being evicted by his fickle fans, viz:-

What?! Was it the soul of Betty!? or Corey Clark's scandal?!

Farmbot tries her best to get a "shocked" look. -_-

haha. best episode ever.

The Apprentice 3 - erin tries to become mrs trump, net worth trumps ulong as being the MOST losingest team EVA (8 loses in a row), Kendra wins. bleah. terrible finale.

oh well. terrible seasons for you there. hopefully the next will be better.

frank

feeling utterly incompetent.

what a TERRIBLE finale.

and a unimaginably HORRID ending, with farmbot winning, THEN showing us her win was so undeserving by screwing up "Inside Your Heaven" with plethora of flat notes and unintelligible bawls.

-_-

methinks 90% of kodak theatre felt so too, cos the clapping and cheering was unnervingly soft, and the shocked, angry faces of many people in the audience was pretty evident.

oh well, so Simon now u have your wish, go on and market her and fail YET again ala Ruben/Fantasia.

the war ain't over.

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ok, so aniwez, LRI is finally upon us. (i honestly am going "phew" cos this ends a nigtmare of inspections after inspections and ridiculous mounds of paperwork and back-tracing of documents.)

but honestly, I'm pretty disappointed at myself.

right now, my RQ and my own sergeant-inspectors are still slogging it out at companty line trying to make the documents match and referrenced.

yet i dunno how to help.

i'm simply TOO inexperienced, and TOO overwhelmed to help. and hence, I sit at the side at times, glancing at their work, offering them some moral support and asking if they want tea or so on. and yeah, promising them their deserved offs upon hearing their anguished pleas.

sigh... it doesn't feel good to have the power, yet completely be outta the loop.

such that you see people of lower rank and pay rushing around and working up a frenzy trying to fix mistakes and do up documents and yet you are sitting on the sofa wondering what to do next, or waiting for the next email to appear.

oh well, really hope I can learn as much as possible from them, such that next time I'll be able to at least hold my own and manage the place properly...

frank

you call THAT your best two singers?!

today's American Idol Finale SUCKED.

Bo was horridly off.

Carrie couldn't hold a verse in tune.

Simon did some MEGA-PIMPING of Carrie, especially with his "I think you did enough to win this competition"

-_- what the hell? you're her manager issit? what's this blatant favouritism for?!

and creating a single that's pretty much manufactured-pop-cheesy music makes it SO skewed for farmbot.

it was totally outta Bo's element and yet he pulled it off.

wow.. what a disappointing finale.

maybe it's cos there's no Vonzell. =)

frank

pimping for trenyce

Trenyce has finally got a new single up!

Preview Amazing

it's slow R'n'B that grows on you... pretty kewl.. i'll be buying her album =)

(Trenyce was the AI2 5th position, losing to a much lousier shitbag called Joshua Gracin despite doing her thang and singing her heart out with "Proud Mary" and "Love Will Keep Us Together"... basically, she's AI2's Baby V, just with less pitch problems, more exciting fashion choices, yet was never pimped by the judges, esp. Simon and hence the result.. -_-)

new attitude

yay!! after slogging for quite awhile with my poor photochop skills and rudimentary HTML code knowledge, finally created my new blog template! yippee!

it's new, it's FRESH and it's much more cheerful than before. i've given up trying to act reflective, contemplative or downright dark with my blog and yeah... look at positive side of things!

hmmm. pretty much wiped out now. went to Ubin with linken and edwin whom were great pals whilst we zoomed down the down-slopes of ubin and groaned when we saw yet another upslope coming up.

kinda reminds me of Brunei's 7 wonders in a small way. =)

guess i'll never get to relive those moments again, not that I want to. but today was like a reconnection with the "great outdoors". re-embracing the adventurous, outdoor-sy persona i was - something which faded away with the appointment as a staff officer.

i like it. and i want more of it. =)

it's back to work liao after tonite, and my arms and legs are aching like siao after 2 consecutive nights of badminton at the carpark, then swimming, then cycling at ubin. dun mind it, really satisfying.

but ahead got the scary LRI coming up this Thurs. sure very stressed one, so really pray things go fine. oh well.

really tired. can't think much. going to sleep soon.

fraNK

swimming causes obesity!

have u ever thought about it?

i dunno about you, but it seems like whenever i go swimming at like the neighbourhood pool, or like at my cousin's house, the other pple in the pool include:-

1. lau ah-peks
2. people who are horridly out-of-shape
3. kids gnashing and thrashing in the water, making as big a splash whenever they jump into the pool, and basically being a BEEG nuisance...-_- kids again

what a bummer.

which is actually pretty depressing sometimes dun u think? esp for people like me whom are trying to work out some exercise regime and have this vision of a lean, fit bod.

i mean, where are all the "Hot Bods" as featured in the Sunday Times and all the lean fit populace in Singapore that grace magazine covers, Urban, or just throng all the streets of Orchard and Paradiz?

esp the "Hot Bods" peeps, considering their workout was surposedly something like "go to the gym 3 times a week and the do 20 laps a day"

get what i mean!?!

hmmm... maybe swimming DOESN'T help at all.. that explains all these out-of-shape people in the pool that swim pretty fast and have hell alot of endurance (yeah... i was beaten by a pretty old looking uncle)

sigh. WHAT a bummer.
fraNK

shopaholic woes

crap.

i just spent money again. this time on books. 3 in fact.. sigh..

i seem to have the irresitible urge of buying stuff when I go to major shopping centers... the swanky new shops, the cool outifts and so on.

adding to my wishlist soon..
1. Fox men tees
2. Zara coat
3. Levi's jeans

i resist and resist, but when i finally sucuumb, i sucuumb in a bad way.

oh well... at least it was a Kino sale.. bought some old books that I was eyeing for quite some while, as well as the latest "Essential X-men" series Vol. 5.. wierd.. where has Psylocke disappeared to?

but my finances are now set back by $50.. sigh... how to save money!??

frAnk.

backstabbers united.

went to read jeremy's blog.

it's true.. there are backstabbers galore everywhere, people who'd twist your words at random to suit their whim and fancy, and then CC the mail to everyone including your superior to try to justify that it is correct.

idiot.

i said, "I'd try to help by asking my messing WO"

and you simply jump to the conclusion that ALL is settled, and send a email to everyone on the universe claiming that "prior to what we have discussed in the morning, everything is blah blah blah settled. thanks for the help."

yah rite. get a life.

dun fricking twist my words just to suit yourself.

and dun go backstabbing me by sending the mail to my superior thinking that'll force me to help you.

when i SAID i can't do it, i don't mean to spite you. I just can't. You simply ration-transferred too late, and everything already go to the supplier side, WHAT do you want me to do?!

and dun think just because u are going for leave within the next two hours you can holler down the phone. stupid DXOs. They seriously think they are like some big shot that can anyhow order people to do stuff.

i got so pissed i told my men to say i was not around the office when someone called. how unproductive.

fraNk
(this is SO interesting. so i dun care and u dun care as well. i see that's how you want it to end, mr busy-bee. FINE)

reacting over nothing

"sometimes i don't understand the obsession with having an agenda when going out...i mean...why cannot just go out and have lunch and talk cock and walk around? why always must plan something to do?"

the vain pursuit of lean/fit figures is, as i have found out, for those with the luxury of time...go do it during office hours lah since u're so free."

who the heck said I was free?

so just because I have time to think about friends and so on I'm free?

and do you honestly think I chose my life the way it is? That I wanted it to be as non-combat and as non-command as it is? Try sitting at the office all day round doing paper work and getting arrowed to do silly meetings and signing paper, preparing documents for this and that and try to eke out time to hit the gym or go running.

if you're really so desperate to go out with me, fine.we can go for coffee at starbucks...or we can have lunch somewhere. just don bring a whole group of friends and expect to me go lanning with you after that, when you knoe that everyone in the group except me would love to go lanning with you. you're just excluding me. in fact i think u've taken me away from one of the closest groups of friends i've ever had because of that. every time i go out with you now, i'm just crossing my fingers you won't go lanning afterward or suggest something equally inconsiderate.

i've taken away your closest friends?

wow.. that really hurt. considering all i tried to do during this period was to suggest something not related to lan to do. like how i tried to get you to come and celebrate alvin's birthday with us. like how I tried to organize some badminton session so that maybe you'd interested. like how i'm now trying to persuade you to go cycling. like how I always ask why so-and-so didn't invite you.

what the hell did I do that for? to isolate you from your closest friends!?

i'm sorry.. i didn't know in addition to tennis and lan, u weren't interested in cycling and badminton and celebrating a friend's birthday as well.

and just because I choose activities that you don't seem to be interested in, I'm ruining your friendships with others.

ok maybe i'm a spoilsport. i don't play tennis. i don't go lanning. i don't wach american idol. or survivor. or the amazing race or the OC or whatever stupid show you have time to watch. i don't like doing most of the things that you like doing. i was friends with you once. but that was when we had common interests...i'm beginning to feel we don't anymore.

you know what's most interesting here? we NEVER had common interests. The ONCE that you thought we had was the time I tried to change my own interests to suit yours so we could have more grounds to talk about. It was ME trying to bridge the gap.

like the pop music and those stupid pop-trivia that you used to throw at me. then when I caught on you shifted to classical music, treating pop music with disdain, as though I soiled it.

like all the irritating choir stuff and so on.

but after awhile, it was apparent that I was losing myself in the process. because the other party REFUSED at ALL COSTS to even attempt to bridge the gap or attempt to find some common ground.

and it's happening again. ALL my actions, were proactive actions trying to get you back into your so called "closest friends", whom you apparently now think have been poisoned by me into being addicted to lan.

you always talk about salvaging our friendship...that's every time we're really down and you don't have other friends i suppose. if u really were serious, then you would have realised by now the mistakes you've been making...i think i've tried hard enough, with my stressful enough work commitments...but you...well i don't think you really care.

so i made all the mistakes. yes.

and i don't really care. thanks.

and i only attempt to salvage relationships when I'm down and I have no one to turn to except the person i insulted.

wadeva.

so... heck monday man. just fricking heck it. apparently all my efforts are viewed as more emotional blackmail on my part, more demands on an already strained friendship. I'm not going to be bothered about this anymore.

and isn't it funny? the comment that sparked it all wasn't even about you. yet it revealed all the hidden grudges you had since the last furore.

I am honestly exasperated. you wanted to know how it all ended? it ends like that.

I'm not going to be bothered or what anymore.

frank

farewell baby v!

I Know I'll Never Love This Way Again
Dionne Warwick, Vonzell Solomon

You looked inside my fantasies
And made each one come true
Something no one else
Had ever found a way to do

I’ve kept the memories one by one
Since you took me in
I know I’ll never love this way again

I know I’ll never love this way again
So I keep holdin’ on before the good is gone
I know I’ll never love this way again
Hold on, hold on, hold on

A fool will lose tomorrow
Reaching back for yesterday
I won’t turn my head in sorrow
If you should go away

I’ll stand here and remember
Just how good it’s been
And I know I’ll never love this way again

I know I’ll never love this way again
So I keep holdin’ on before the good is gone
I know I’ll never love this way again
Hold on, hold on, hold on

I know I’ll never love this way again
So I keep holdin’ on before the good is gone
I know I’ll never love this way again
Hold on, hold on, hold on

I know I’ll never love this way again
So I keep holdin’ on before the good is gone
I know I’ll never love this way again
Hold on, hold on

I know I’ll never love this way again
So I keep holdin’ on before the good is gone
I know I’ll never love this way again
Hold on, hold on

I know I’ll never

(btw.. if u ever wanna guess which idol contestant i'll be supporting, the best is to bet on black.. AI 2 -> Trenyce(5th), AI 3 -> La Toya(4th), AI 4 -> Vonzell(3rd).. hey.. my record is improving!)

baby v is better than farmbot!

pretty useless since simon will probably get his farmbot into final 2 though it ain't really a challenge since Bo honestly OWNS it now...

but.. still.. hoping the baby v makes it..

obnoxious people

I so cannot find a new blogskin for my blog... =(

partially because I placed too many new stuff and codes into my current template, so any additions causes major hiccups, and honestly, I don't really have the patience to go figure it out.

aniwez... juz a realization of the 10 most obnoxious types of people you can find in Singapore.

1. kids on their wheelies.

2. people who clog the exit/entrance of an MRT in the attempt to enter the carriage first. They just stand blank-faced exactly in front of the doors, ignoring the angry faces staring at them through the glass. They don't budge when the doors open and just attempt to squeeze their way through to get their prized side seats...

3. old people whom think they have the right to cut bus queues just cos they're old

4. if the above is not bad enough, YOUNGSTERS whom cut bus queues nonchalantly, like we're blocking his FRICKING path.

5. people who talk too loud in MRT carriages and buses (FYI, we DO NOT want to hear of your opinion of how Vonzell is not going to get into Final 2 because Farmbot is oh so good..)

6. people whom utter foreign gibberish loudly in MRT carriages and buses. Somehow gibberish is EVEN more irritating than english, and it seems like majority of those who talk loud are people whom utter their dialect-ish gibberish...

7. people whom blast their cd players so loud we get to hear their paltry musical choices.

8. parents whom think it is fun to see their kids on wheelies, and encourage them further

9. RUDE cashiers and salespeople whom get darn rite indignant when we like take one more straw, or like DARE to actually ask for chilli and make them expand a little more energy

10. people whom do not reply to SMS-es. and refuse to prioritize his bunch of friends a lil' higher than the position of a trash-bin. (u noe who i am talking about)

frAnk

round the world whilst on duty.

this is interesting.

i did more research on travelling in Europe, as well as on options in US universities, whilst I was doing duty on Sunday, as compared to all the weekends I've had since I comissioned.

(it even prompted one of my men to say, "dun worry, after a few more DOO duty, you'll have your travelling plan completely firmed up... -_-)

says pretty much about what a terribly undisciplined and wasteful life I'm living eh?.. sigh.. no wonder my mom gets so pissed at me at times...

aniwez this duty was pretty pleasant cos time passed pretty fast as I alternated between sleeping and semi-sleeping whilst browsing through the travelling books and university guide..

but the university guide has got me worried. a lot of my "so-called favourite" schools initially has given me slightly negative vibes after reading the book...

like UC Berkely being so crowded, it gets asphyxiating.

or like how the schools have this Greek fratenity and sorority thing which is somewhat an elitist group that claims to have more fun, par-tays and booze than other people whom are not in such stuff...(typically nerds i guess) which translates to being more kewl, popular and fun-loving to many... -_-

I seriously do not understand this whole sorority and fratenity thing. Anyone care to explain?

but thinking about it, it's a Catch-22 scenario ain't it. You complain about elitism when you're not in it but if u "lucky" and get in, then you'll be saying this is such a good opportunity for bonding and getting to know more people easily... but i dunno.. i dun even noe what the hell this system is...

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then about my tour de Europe.. right now, i'm thinking something along the lines of

Instanbul, Turkey --> Capaddocia, Turkey --> Izmir, Turkey --> Ephesus and Kusadasi, Turkey --> Samos, Greece --> Mykonos, Greece --> Athens, Greece --> Pelopponese, Greece --> Rome, Italy --> Florence, Italy --> Nice, France --> Geneva, Siwtzerland --> Berlin, Germany --> Paris, France --> Marseille, France --> London, UK --> Cambridge, UK

ambitious eh? i dunno lah.. wishful thinking methinks... it needs to be downsized alot and much more carefully thought of..

guess i'll leave that to other duty times =)

fraNK

the world is SO unfair.

why is it that some guys can like visit Cafe Cartel and Crystal Jade and then do such sedentary activites like chio girls and go for karaoke sessions WHILST being an airforce clerk and STILL maintain a good figure, not look fat, and have such decent dress sense!?!

PLUS, why is it some guys have FRIENDS that can plan kewl outings like going cycling @ pulau ubin and like go for night cycling and so on.. whilst my frens.. either want me to plan or ain't that type?! very sad leh seriously... like my past can never be put behind and the friends i MADE determines the lifestyle i live...

Noooo... this is SO bad for my new resolutions... sigh... better try harder

BotakGorilla..another of those lucky guys

sigh. why am i always in this perpetual state of disatisfaction!?
fraNK

more resolutions?

went to East Coast to roller blade with my family (actually my sis insisted on me accompanying her in roller blading when I had at first planned to go biking)

Aniwez it was a pretty kewl experience, realized that as long as u noe some form of skating, the rest are pretty natural as well.. =) so I managed to skate pretty well from the start =) and well, blading seems to be more tiring than ice skating, mainly because of the increased friction and well, cos my rental skates pretty much sucked.

aniwez.. i've been thinking about a lot of things esp since celestine (royce's gf) hit a sore point by asking whether i exercised in camp or not...

WHICH, to me, translated to the fact that I had grown fat...

sigh... seems like only with outwardly enforced discipline will one really live a disciplined and healthy lifestyle of like sleeping early and waking up early, eating three balanced meals at the cookhouse and so on... (but no... Fred told me someone was like that)

but i dun believe. going to commit this to God to help myself embark on a more disciplined lifestyle.

(PLUS, if Harris can maintain a diet of like eating a full bfast, then drinking coffee for lunch and then having like a bun for dinner and topping it all with 100 push ups and a run around the stadium daily, why not me?)

so what kind of more disciplined lifestyle leh? i honestly dunno.. but had many ideas after a nice cooling walk down memory lanes at Siglap (more abt it soon)

cos @ Siglap, saw like a few guys playing street soccer in the soccer court and like all looking darn lean and fit... realised i'll probably never be like them, first due to my job, then due to the fact that most of my frens dun seem to keen on such stuff, and lastly cos.. I dun fit the image.. =) sigh.. though honestly i won't mind being like that for one day or so to ty out...=)

but what I can probably do is like get my men to play badminton with me, or ask like Fred to join along and play during one of the stay-in nites (yeah, prob need to stay-in one or two nites and get a more disciplined life)

then like maybe eat less during the meals.. but not to the extent of skipping meals lah...

then i guess can also implement some exercise regime or something.. like progressively more push-up and so on... then run every nite or so...

whateva it is.. it's still up in the air.. and I'm honestly the master of procrastinations (as said by royston).. so I really hope can do so.. =)

pleaseeee...

fraNK

yes! yes! YEESSSS!

I am guilty of shouting at an inanimate object with sheer frustration.

I am also guilty of pacing up and down my living room, hands wringing my shirt in frustration, over a TV show.

but really, YESSSSSSSSSS!!!!!

Uchie and Joyce won!!! Rob gets his face slammed by "King Havanna"! hahaha

honestly.. it's really only Rob that makes the team so contemptible and downright disgusting.. i really pity Amber at times, cos she's a pretty kewl person.. but hey TERRIBLE taste u got there...

what a satisfying win man!~

p.s. to Romber fans that are complaining it is fricking unfair it came down to a cab-race or that the airplane was fricking fixed... GET A LIFE!~ The race focused on luck.. with bloody Romber getting a lion's share of it... so why COMPLAIN when luck of choosing a cab finally determines the win!? Just go one corner and sulk whilst the rest of the world are cheering... (well except those idiots who helped them along the way)

frAnk

being bored.

went to my cousin's blog and saw her latest entry.
decided to follow suit...

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says.

"dismissed our demurrals as yet more engaging quirks of ours.."
Bill Bryson, Neither here Nor there

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?

Cupboard

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?

Xiao Shi-yilang, a Hong Kong martial arts TV serial

4. WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is.

12.00am

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?

12.00am

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

My aircon humming

7. When did you last step outside? what were you doing?

7.30pm.. went to learn driving

8. Before you came to this website, what did you look at?

My own blog =)

9. What are you wearing?

A faded white tee and grey shorts

10. Did you dream last night?

Not that I remember

11. When did you last laugh?

Whilst driving and making a whopping big mistake and putting the car to full clutch whilst turning

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?

Monet paintings, a chinese opera mask collection, my ACPC photo

13. Seen anything weird lately?

Nope

14. What do you think of this quiz?

Filler

15. What is the last film you saw?

The Intepreter

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?

My freedom, then first class round-the-world tickets

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.

I like acting childish at times.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?

Rid the world of backstabbing and ingenuity

19. Do you like to dance?

No.. too tired

20. George Bush: is he a power-crazy nutcase or some one who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years?

He's a shrub. at least the intelligence of one.

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?

DUN ask me about naming people AGAIN... (read naming parents entry)

21. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?

Refer to above

22. Would you ever consider living abroad?

Definately. The grass there is greener. And i get to experience winter.

23. Will you pass on this survey?

Duh. How to fail?

-frank-

analyze this!

have your face analyzed.

ok... just saw a pretty cool website which basically analyzed yer face and then gave a detailed description of the type of person you are.. and mine?

Race Analysis: 100% Korean/Japanese (?!?!)
Gender: MALE (duh!)

Intelligence:---7.2----- Very Intelligent (hee)

Risk: --- 5.3----- Average Risk

Ambition: --- 7.1 ----- High Ambition (true...)

Gay Factor: ---1.2 ----- Very Low Gay Factor

Honor: ---5.6 ----- Average Honor (-_-)

Politeness: ---3.0 ----- Low Politeness (WHAT!?)

Income: ---7.1 ----- $50,000 - $100,000

Sociability: ---4.2 ----- Low Sociability (no way man)

Promiscuity: ---3.3 ----- Low Promiscuity (oh well..)

YOUR ARCHETYPE: BETA ACADEMIC

Personality Profile:

You are a long-term planner, diligent worker and avoid risk as much as possible.

You are of above average intelligence and have the ability to focus on tasks that seem unimportant at present, but can lead to greater things in the foreseeable future.

You are not keen to interact with others or make social connections.

You would rather gain material wealth before putting yourself in a position to be judged.

You are highly concerned with your social status.

You are keen to avoid risks that could jeopardize your long-term plans. You take a calculated approach to life, working hard to control all aspects of it in order to not leave anything important to chance.

You tend to be a perfectionist and quite self-conscious.

Expected Occupations: Lawyer, Doctor, Investment Analyst, Accountant, Architect, Engineer, Professor, Researcher, Psychologist

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this is silly.. i feel like putting a picture of a rat or a bunny there and seeing whether they give 10.0 intelligence to it.. hmmm..

not correct, but nonetheless, one of the more fun and non-tedious personality tests..

fraNK

vote for baby v!

vote for baby v!

the song "treat me nice" has been stuck in my mind since her performance.. it's darn good... =)

now if only she can get to Final 2...

Treat Me Nice, Elvis Prestley

When I walk through that door
Baby be polite
You're gonna make me sore
If you don't greet me right
Don't you ever kiss me once, kiss me twice
Treat me nice

I know that you've been told
It's not fair to tease
So if you come on cold
I'm really gonna freeze
If you don't want me to be cold as ice
Treat me nice

Make me feel at home
If you really care
Scratch my back and run your pretty
Fingers through my hair

You know I'll be your slave
If you ask me to
But if you don't behave
I'll walk right out on you
If you want my love then take my advice
Treat me nice

Make me feel at home
If you really care
Scratch my back and run your pretty
Fingers through my hair

You know I'll be your slave
If you ask me to
But if you don't behave
I'll walk right out on you
If you want my love then take my advice
Treat me nice

If you really want my love then treat me nice

round the world trip?

badminton is darn fun man.

and badminton fever is spreading throughout my family.. now even Samuel, Daniel and Li Wei came to play.. hehe.. which honestly makes things much more fun and games much more exciting

which makes me wonder, i had 3 male cousins of pretty much the same age for quite a while liao.. why in the world did i never get close with them and go for sports/games etc? only now then i realise got lost opportunities? haha.. wadeva.

setting another few resolutions for myself..
1. go nite-cycling
2. give my bunk a good scrub
3. save money like siao...

the last point is pretty crucial, honestly, if i am going to have any dreams of going for a europe backpack... cos it was only today that the harsh reality of the steep prices hit me hard. -_-... which means I better start saving...

and i was still having sweet dreams thinking of upgrading the tour to a round-the-world trip, buying round-the-world air tickets and then really going on my own amazing race.

like singapore >> japan >> south korea >> hawaii >> california >> argentina >> brazil >> south africa >> egypt >> greece >> switzerland >> russia >> turkey >> nepal >> thailand >> singapore...

15 cities, 1 round-the-world ticket, loads of fun, but no money to pull it off... =(

so i'll narrow my scope first and save for a europe backpack first lah.. estimate it to be around $5000 - $7500 odd.. which means i better start saving and living frugally...

like $500 needs to be saved.
plus $300 i have to give to my parents
means i have $200 to spend?!?

with $20 x 4 = $80 on transportation...
and around $60 for food,
that means i have a grand total of $60 to SPEND?
OH NO.. and i forgot offerings... =(

houston, we have a problem...

sigh.. start scrimping.
fraNk

happy mother's day!

Here's some virtual flowers for you!

and no.. to those who are currently thinking that I'm fricking cheapskate by not buying stuff for my mom or what... I DID buy my mom stuff. =)

housekeeping...

my parents are back!! yay!!

truth be told, the house was getting a lil' derelict with the mere few days they were not around.. so yeah, it's glad to have them back...

and yeah, my next goal is to clean up my bunk AND my own room @ home. realised it is very easy to just "heck it" and dun bother about the mounting layers of dust and just treat the house like some hotel (that slowly denigrades from 5 star to 1 star)

well, must set good example lah.. it's very ironic if i tell my men to do area cleaning and go and check under the beds etc whilst I leave my room in a complete mess, where whatever I drop on the floor rakes up multitudes of dust balls and the windows are so filthy people are scribbling ORD dates on them -_-...

aniwez, remember i talked about solitude some few posts ago? well, i had some sort of solitude today whilst walking back from slowly from thomson plaza, just enjoying the night breeze and reminiscing the past...

... all the familiar places with so many memories and stories to tell...

like thomson plaza swensens where I made Jack Jack treat me to (our favourite) Frosted Chocolate Malt cos it was his birthday.. and we were there talking about everything under the sun...

like all the times my relatives and I went to the nearby eateries like Nam Kee Chicken Rice and Ivins and brought the house down with our riotious laughter and lod conversations...

all these memories have faded into the recesses of my mind.. only to be drawn out by the familiarity of situations...

and well, are they bittersweet? reminding me of drifted away relationships or wasted chances?

or are they a fond memory of things that I cherish?

i dunno. but its better to have such memories then to have none... as Tina Wesson of Survivor 2 fame said, "I'd want to die in a coffin filled with memories and experiences.."

fraNK

bad luck and bad habits

my family has been going through a spate of bad luck recently.

first was my granddad's death. then my parents having to cancel their trip.
then now my sis has just gotten into a car accident, thankfully, through the phone she sounds perky and alright.

sigh.

oh well, been bumming around this whole saturday doing absolutely nothing except THINKING of going to swim but of course too lazt to get my butt of the computer seat and go.. sigh.. it's things like these that'll cause my to get fat again... yet i'm STILL procrastinating.

said i wanted solitude. but guess YET again the computer addictions won over. must really stop. meaning like after this post. =) aniwez, was reading the scripts for house of wax and amityville horror.. (it's one of my absurd pasttimes -- reading horror movie scripts and imagining them cos I know I have no guts to go and watch them in the cinemas) House of wax really sounds very darn gruesome whilst the amityville horror script pretty much indicates that it would fall apart without the much-lauded CGI effects nowadays... which is pretty sad.

but one part of horror movies i like is when one protagonist is reading through dusty journals and memoirs and startles upon a startling revelation of some deep dark secret or horror whilst the other protagonist is actually EXPERIENCING the horror without him/her knowing it.. something like walking through the actual dark halls of the actual scene depicted in the journal... that always makes for a darn frightening scene... (can guess which movie i'm talking about? it's The Others by the lovely Nicole Kidman, the part where she sees a picture of 3 dead bodies, including herself whilst her kids were venturing towards the servants digging up their graves.. and the horrified, terrorized look on Nicole's porcelain face, coupled with her intense worry for her kids)

oh well.. i watched THAT huddling behind the airplane pillow on an airplane... see how ham i am? haha..

frank

what's going on?

i'm getting a little skeptical about blogging these days.

first is due to the negative flak that has fallen upon the blogging world due to the recent incidents of scholars and other alike getting horrendously implicated to the stuff they wrote on their blog such that their scholarships and stuff were in jeopardy...

second is that some people honestly use blogs to satisfy their own manicial voyeuristic desires, and yeah, whatever better way than to read someone's innermost thoughts, desires, complains and so on?

so yeah.. what to do? write some shallow crap to fill the blog? like "oh i went to so-on-so's place today and did this and so on.." -_- might as well not write...

i dunno lah.. quite a dilemna, and honestly, I'm pretty scared by the way people are doing exposes of other people's blogs and causing a helluva trouble... sheesh.. can't u just keep your humongous noses outta other people's journals?

fraNk

home alone, part 2

aniwez tonight was the second nite of home alone segment 2.. cos mom and dad flew off to enjoy the remnants of their Japan holiday... so yeah, it's back to me and my sis again... with lot' sa love from our various aunties... =)

tonight we were invited to our second aunt's house for dinner (we didn't know it was her birthday until the cake came out... oops!~) It was pretty fun, she invited alot of youngsters and relatives and we dined into some yummy western fare as well as galores of dessert and chocolate...

got to know my cousins better again, which is a good thing, as well as my cousin's cousin and so on.. nice dinner, nice evening spent out and yeah, hopefully can all keep in touch and continue such stuff...

i have such nice aunts and relatives. =)

fraNK

vanity affair

i'm shunning mirrors and things that reflect my image these days...

the reason? i look like a JOKE thanks to the bloody barber that cut my hair so short, i practically look like a fresh BMTC graduate, or like some darn severe person with no sense of humour.

honestly i was going into shock mode when i saw the blood barber shave viciously and happily DEEP into my hair, and that was like cannot save liao..

but that's the LAST $9 YOU'LL ever get from me you terrible, amateur pathetic excuse of a barber!

I'm better off at QB or EC... or whatever fanciful name they're giving themselves..

which pretty much spoils my mood for the whole week and probably weeks to come... I have so little hair that it's no fun scratching it even.. arggh.. i'm so pissed off..

to which my dad told me to stop being so vain... sigh.. am i?

or is it unfair to just hope for a decent haircut that makes me look good and confident, that doesn't require much styling yet still looks presentable?

i dunno... i think it's the backlash from looking lika PRC in JC that is making me so darn conscious about my looks these days..

oh well.. SCREW THE BARBER.

frAnk

teenage angst

I am angry.

angry that the stupid fake battlenet JUST does not work on my com, and made me ponder and crack my brains to figure out how to solve the damned problem, to no avail. Anyone knows how to remedy,

"Unable to validate game version. Please reconnect to battle.net or update the game patch manually"

I feel like SUCH a computer idiot and durr-brain.

angry too, at believing the MBR spoiler of Romber leaving tonight, meaning that I pretty much gleefully told everyone that cared that Romber was leaving. And I expect a pretty severe backlash. Like from my uncle -_-

angry that the bloody Romberites get to see Romber in the Final 3, meaning they stink our screens a further ONE more episode and get to be cheered on by the rest of the teams as they head to the finishing mat. Really think the losing teams will band together and purposely block them from entering.

angry that Meredith and Gretchen said adios.

angry that I have become SO retarded, that despite knowing I have to wake up early tommorow to go to work, I am STILL online at 1.30am.

angry that my neck sprain still persists...

ahhh.. teenage angst... may the procrastination STOP.

fraNk

nicole is hot in any language

i love nicole. i wanna marry nicole.

she's hot and beautiful in any language and hairstyle.

she deserves another oscar for that performance.

and i'm too tired to comment or blog about other issues like my first driving lesson or like the reunion of the 7 devils with one extra.

but the interpreter is a pretty good show, with a tight knit plot and interesting themes. go watch. if all else fails and u are as dumb as lin ken to not understand the plot, there's still nicole.

frank

i'm going nowhere.

this is terrible.

my life is in shambles:

i dread going back to work.

i am going nowhere with my searching for US universities despite promising my parents.

i have no time for myself sometimes, it's either the computer or going out with friends. where's the solitude? sometimes i wish I have a whole week to blow away so that I can meet all the friends I want to meet, finish all the obligations and responsibilities and still have solitude.

(hmm... seems like now i desire solitude.)

well, it's pretty obvious I KNOW the solution to the problems and I hold the key to solve the problems.

I just have to do something. be more disciplined.

manage my time better and do the more important things.

i really am spending too much time on the computer liao.

need to exercise more, spend more time with God and so on...

and yeah, let a more disciplined Frank emerge.. =)

frANk

twins syndrome

go read Ben's blog. (ie. the one titled Reality Bites Back)

i am starting to think I really have a twin. or a monogram of myself.

it's like whatever he writes echoes with whatever I'm feeling, and whatever he went through I have either gone through already (ie. OCS) or am going through (ie. searching for the blasted university to go to)

this is pretty wierd.

fraNk